end of the week
Sunday, January 30, 2005

okayz.. come to blog again. another 4 days has passed. become a 4day-blog liao lo. haha.. okok.. hehez.. ty bought j-star mag for me liao le. yay.. y i suddenly so 'on' to 5566. and zax. watever.. but then i look forward to reading and reading the mag. in chinese and think its in fan ti zi somemore.. haha. then quite ex also. hopefully its worth the price. haha.. ty say got lotsa information on 5566. and also hope to watch ge dou tian wang sooner.. but not selling vcd yet le.

okay.. last fri my sch ends at 11.30. then i at first thot i could me hoe at around noon. but in the end she was having meeting. so instead of finding her at fuhua. i contacted ks and went with him for lunch. then come my house where my com overwork. =p
then if i m not wrong.. tmw will be going back to fuhua again... cos hoe contact me liao.. then go lo.. tmw still quite free to go.

then today go art class lo. now i still stink with that oil painting smell.. and my whole room stinks. i painted a purple colour scheme and a pic of the seaside. pple say beri romantic (my teacher) and pple say nice. but then is like so empty.. eee.. not nice.. this is my first time trying out purple colour scheme. looks quite romantic ya... but then not nice le.. haiz.. shall change further next week. smelly~ oil painting..

awW.. and like this week end i did nth. i din really do my hwk and revise.. i only finish 3 qns of my math tutorial. and din even rev for the test next week. sianz. i hvnt touch chem yet. GP got some qn also hvnt do. my bio tutorial hvnt finish sia. then chinese w/s hack care.. but i do half way beri xin ku if i din complete it. haiz.. so many things to do. could i finish that by tonite? i wonder. i dun think so. luckily tonite i m not eating out. can spend more time on work. just now sleep for like 1 and half hour. so long.. now beri awake. haha.. later at nite cannot sleep liao. chiong hwk liao lo.. that's y now i use com. later at nite my bro will use com one.. then i can happily do my hwk. haiz.... hwk.....

hmm.. i think quite long liao ba.. go bath sia.. beri smelly... arghZ. my j-star mag!...wonder when i can meet up ty. haha..

byeee~!

- j-star tengwan
(zax and 5566 cOoL~)

-5:19:00 PM



almost another week at jjc gonezZ
Wednesday, January 26, 2005

okay.. its like about 4 days since i last blogged. so was like another week is almost coming to an end ... time really really flies.. almost one month in jjc? haiz.. i got some feeling of dropping out.. i dunno. then i m aching from head to toe again.. (physically unfit) from the Pc lessons i had today and yesterday.
then lolz.. our class finished up the chicken which was suppose to be for the CNY.. blahz.. then quite nice also. just that the chicken lantern doesnt have neck.. oh well

nth much this week.. aiya.prom.. whatever.. dun think i m going afterall. i dunno.. hvnt reply them

then went back to fuhua to help ms hoe. and i drag jy along too. then help with the chinese new year banner.. chun lian.. end up i both of us giving the banner with lotsa moles..(spilling the black paint here and there on the banner..) haha.. then after that ms lee,ms chua and ms hoe went mad.. crazy over selling and advertising their roses and also for the sports day cheers.. laugh until peng sia.. haha. then after that ms hoe treated lo.=p aiya.. fishball noodles only la.. but that stall is really nice=) then talk abt the prom and where and what courses to take in future.. haiz.. all teachers say that interior design is "saturated" same for my ma's opinion.. haiz.. how? what course shld i take?i dunno le..will be going back to fuhua maybe this week or next week? i dunno.. see how lo.. got to show my work to ms hoe too.. blahz..

then is like now so slack..even PC during the games was so slacking.. haha.. then lessons was like (esp the math teacher) we actually understand one.. talk until i go blur.. bad sia.. the math teacher teach until is like every qn she wrote on the board would ask" izit correct" then think think a while say" wrong wrong" she erase away.. then was like most of the time she was figuring out how the qn shld go about.. awW.. bad le.. unlike mr chia.. got every single qn prepared..lolz.. i beri bad la.. do comparison between teachers..

okayz.. so there isnt much hwk too.. so just kpo here and there.. not that i wan more hwk.. but really nth to do. so i would just stare at those booklets given by the poly.. lolz..or just stare at the com for 1 hr or so? or the best... just ZzzzZ... haha..

okay.. lazy to type more.. which i think will be more crapz.. crapz a lot and lame a lot nowadays.. going crazy soon.. haha..
nth much liao ba.. i think i shall go sleep? or do some chem tutorials.. sianZz..
tata~!

-tengwan

-9:12:00 PM



NYP open house
Saturday, January 22, 2005

well, i went to nanyang poly open house today.. hmm.. quite interesting. to me, NYp is rather familiar to me. in that sense that when i was sec 2, we had our cultural nite over at NYP auditorium.. so was like i like the surrounding.hmm.. over there only got industrial designing and digital media design that i would consider. one of the year 3 student brought me and yr around to see the indust.d rooms and how the whole thing works. lolz. that gal was so fun to be with.. she beri beri funny sia.. make us laugh like siao.. sometimes talk a bit like la bi xiao xin the voice.. then was so funny lo. haha..

then i was mesmerised by that twisting of fork. still wonder how that guy did that.. its nice. now it is sitting right in front of me quietly.. while i m typing.. (ya.. i knw its lame) lolz

then after that went to jurong east with yr to eat LJS.. hehez.. then go popular to see see lo... after farewell-ing with yr, i went back to Wm to walk one round. went to popular at wm also.. lolz. i find that i love going to pop. i dunno y.. i din buy anything la.. but just see see and look look...haha..

oh well, i m left with i think chem hwk which precisely i din really touch at all. i really dun wan to touch it le.. haiz. so sianz....but i find i m running out of time. grrr...

wonder what course shld i join in poly... i mean designing... i m not sure whether interior design got so call 'survival' thingies in singapore.. i wonder....

alrite, better not talk too much. otherwise i m flooding the blog again.. thou this time din really type that long... haha.. sianz..

-NYPtengOne... =)


-5:18:00 PM



New layout=)
Friday, January 21, 2005

okays.. i finally got the layout out.. and change the original was westside story pic. wonder is there too many things moving? haha...give comments k? i find that my blog is forever SO wordy.. i dunno y.. lolz.. okok.. abt that liao.. byee~!

* i got some of the things updated haha..=)*

-tengwan

-9:55:00 PM



yeA~ longer weekend


okayz... public holiday today. n i have been slacking for the whole morning.. i managed to do bits of my bio tutorials . haiz.. got lotsa of things to do sia.. got to do chem tutorial,lecture, practical, chinese hwk, bio tutorial, notes, blahz.. many more.. haiz.. supposely to go to family outing today.. probably at sentosa if i m not wrong.. think playing beach ball? i dunno. but i not really feeling well la.. i weak sia. 2 consecutive days of PC i fall sick liao..haha.. down with a bit of fever again. well, much better now but then i lazy la..=p

shld be going to nanyang poly open house tmw. with yr and jy. looking forward to it=) haha. well, i badly need to find out informations and the exact things of TP and SP. gone to their websites so many times lo..

yesterday went to jjc co to see see. my ex yq teacher is the conductor. then is like so paiseh.. he beri gd one le... let him down la.. haiz. then hor errmz.. the co is really bad la.. not that i wan to say.. but no choice what.. not many pple join and so many of them are learning from scratch. then learn like a few months go competition liao.. haiz.. bad education policy. but what can i do?

i badly wan to go back to fuhua these few days.. i wan. ms hoe sms and asked whether i could help up that CNY banner .. so is like next week. i hate the timetable in jc la. so late end... fed up la. i dunno if i can hang on till the last day of first 3 months. haiz.. i miss everything in sec sch. really. the pple, sch compound ( after i compared with jjc) , the atmosphere... i find that the environment doesnt fit me to study in. really.. i dislike jjc sch compound. its like so irritating to find that u always merry-go-round and walk the long way.. and irritating to find that u can walk till u reach a dead end. and the waste of spaces on the roof tops. 2pid... compared to fuhua. i think fuhua is much much nicer. thou the design is not excellent but i believe its still better. i miss the teachers in fuhua. all my dearest teachers... haiz.. i wan go back.i m starting to forget the pictures of fuhua...

okok.. i have more to type. but then ma tell me to help her liao..

haiz.. miss everything in sec sch.....

-missingfuhuatengwan

-1:02:00 PM



another week
Tuesday, January 18, 2005

hmm, wonder what shld i blog. somehow, with more tutorials today, i made more new frens. so many.. then i have some prob remembering them all. one of them was interesting.. we could call her NAZI.. haha.. so funny.. then i go around telling pple i m ONe.. tengone.. lolz. i change name.. blahz.. no la. like that pple easier to rem also

so i have PC lesson, physical conditioning.. awW.. so bad.. i find i m really not fit sia.. beri fat.. no stamina.. and now i m pain from head to toe.. esp my legs and shoulder.. ran hmm.400x3 rounds the track today.. so sianz. i hate running most le.. still tell us to run.. run 1.2 km.. blahz. hate running.. then the teacher say its still the beginning.... sheeZ...

okay, i dunno what to blog abt liao le.. i think i have to read thru my notes.. and maybe tie up some of my what they call assignment...

-tengONE

-8:01:00 PM



BLAC.bday.vex
Sunday, January 16, 2005

hmm.. today i got back to boon lay art centre after a YEARs' break.. haiz.. its a different feeling for me. my standard drop of cos. and always like i wan to knw more pple... but my mouth dun listen to me.. blahz.. now graduated from sec sch liao is like i m one of the oldest there.. haiz. old liao le..! then its a must to become leaders there.. awWw... then mr yap say next year will be holding a art exhibition .. and wanna all of us to organize.. arghx.. so hard i think.. but hope i could be more ethu a bit. =p now in Western art A.. blahz.. highest level liao.. then like i still that standard.. so sianz.. then pple younger than me draw nicer.. but they use better colourings.. that's y. then beri sad le.. haiz..

then beri vexed this few days.. cos at first the feel of going back to art centre makes me uneasy. cant be explain what the feeling is like. then, the 2pid chem at jc is making me so vexed.. i dunno how to do. then was like i still struggles.. i dun like it in the first place.. so i have negative mindset over chemistry.. haiz.. i just dun understand le. how? then still got practicals coming up next week. which is tmw! omg... ~ i hate chem manz... haiz...
then got to meet new pple and make new frens tmw. so sianz... i dun like that unez feeling of mine that lingers throughout my body.. haiz.. tmw going to have lessons in classes... not in OG. so sad.. hao bu rong yi make some gd frens in my OG. now separating after 2 weeks. 2pid la...

guess i really dun like jc le. but i wonder how is poly like? i dunno..
today my bro bday le.. and so FAST.. he old liao le.. 20 years old. no longer young liao. haiz. time waits no man.....

but nevertheless, happy birthday to him ba.

-vexing tengwan

-4:13:00 PM



a Month more to my 17th birthday!
Thursday, January 13, 2005

hey! its a month more to my 17th birthday! hope it will be a shuang bday.. haa.. just suddenly remembered about it. haha... too bad its on a sunday.=p but nevertheless.. yAy!

-4:30:00 PM



lectures at jjc


hmm.. its like almost a week of lectures for me liao. so lesson starts this week. but the time table is still rather slack. was like most of the time waiting for the next lesson and nothing much to do in btw. oh ya. got to know what class i m going liao. 05S3. hmm.. separating from my new frens thou. haiz.. but i think wont be staying after first 3 months. y le?

firstly, the GP paper. its really really so... it sounds really difficult for me. especially i m not an agrumentative writer. i dun agrue.. so is like a big task for me. i m more descriptive and narrative. so was like when i had the lesson for GP. it was although interesting in some sense. but what they so called"GP monster" is really hard to fight. haiz.

secondly, chemistry.. i studied combine chem in sec sch. so was like compared to others, whom they have studied pure chem, i was losing out. then was like i dun really like chem in the first place. sort of forced to take it cos no other combination liao. so was like sometimes i struggles. no la.. not that bad la.. but then initially, i just dun like chem. its set. chem is a subject that i do some memorising.. that's all. so was like now telling me to study chem. its really difficult.

thirdly, chinese. hmm.. i just had my first chinese lesson today. its like half year din touch chinese liao. then i really dislike the chinese syllabus in jc. really. the repetition over the years.. compre,fill in blanks,oral,compo.. blahz.. i m really sick of the format. it seems to dimish my joy for chinese.. haiz.

and after almost 2 weeks of schooling at jjc, i find myself that i cant exactly fit in to jc life. i mean not physically in the sense. but mentally. i still have that passion for art. and find myself no interest in academic subjects. somehow, desiging, maybe graphic or interior attracts more of my attention. i still cant let my eyes off interior designs pics.. i will just look and look and look. looking and admiring at those details they drew. i really enjoy it. so was like the passion of art din really fade off. and grew to bored the life of jc. thou some says its really wonderful.

maybe i m fix to what i wan to do in future....

i dunno. sometimes, i still doubt abt my own abilities. cos one mountain higher than the other. so was like wondering if i could make it or not. wat's poly life all about? i think its time for me to find out.. what sub other than the main sub they chose. i wonder...

alrite, lotsa craps and thoughts written for this entry i think. i m just making decisions. hopefully my decision is correct and really leads me... i hope to have the support from my family... thou they seems they would. but i m still lack of some confidence in myself. haiz...

okay.. shall end the blog here.. sort of enjoy typing on the other hand. just typing and typing. haha... okay.. think shld go and bathe and do those 2pid chem tutorial notes.. blahz.. sianz. i hate chem. bio is still okay for me.

--d e ci s o n.m a k i n g.t e n g w a n.t h a t.h a v e n t.r e a l l y.d e c i d e d . . . .

-4:11:00 PM



lesson at jjc
Monday, January 10, 2005

wow.. so fast i three days din blog liao. hmm.. started with the normal lesson today. and break away from orientation mood. well, had chem, bio lessons today. and i actually went to have econs lesson eventhough i din take up econs. haha. but it was quite boring. maybe because of my mindset ba. the teacher also beri fierce. ee~
then chem was the most interesting out of everything. the teacher is more sort of comedy like. unlike bio.. omg.. so fast.. haha..
well, tmw will be math , the first lesson of the day. heard that they will be teaching or rather i shld say refreshing indices with us. AwW .. i forgotten all my math and given it back to mr chia.. awW...haha.. actually for the time being the lessons and the time table is beri slack for my case. its like one day linger around the school from 7+ to maybe 2... then was like only a few lessons.. each around 1hr or 1/2hr.. so slack.. (for the time being i stress) but then i think i shld still read up before hand. esp chem. cos i m really poor at it. with combine chem and the first topic they are shooting at is mole concept. omg.. its my worse chapter in chem syllabus.. haiz...

alrite.. i dunno what to blog also.. once again... i wan to study art afterall. i have set my aim.. really.. i m going back to BLAC next sunday. hope everything is still the same. one year liao.. time really flies.. oh ya.. set to go poly i think.. byee!!

-thetengwanwhohasstartedtostudy.


-6:51:00 PM



back from jjcamp
Saturday, January 08, 2005

well, yesterday, i was too tired to actually type out my experience at the camp. but afterall, i think the camp really bond us together. thru various activites.. and of cos, made quite a few frens there. we went thru events like mass dance, world war 3, telematch, crazy search,JJ nite,cheers. and most "touchingly" was when they spoke of those OGL(orientation group leaders) hard work on the camp.. and the outcome was successful, all was crying. so touching.. haiz.. they really went thru a lot to make this camp possible.

hmm, learnt team work and the spirit of jj from the camp. and of cos, lots of cheers. i wonder y. just 3 days, the bonds were so tight and strong. and went i reached back home from jj. its weird. the cheers just ringed in my ears. like pple still cheering. its really really weird. like pple are still cheering. and i danced for the first time at jj. many first time for me to happen there at jj. everyone was so 'on' and ethu. the loyalty to jj was built up. but sad to say.. i still cant really face the work load in jc.. so i think afterall, i m still choosing to go poly.

next mon starting to study liao. sianz.. i m taking chem, bio, math, GP, chineseAO. so sianz.. i dun really like chem. too bad lo. hopefully i can cope it ba.

hmm.. now dunno what to do also. feel like using the com and do sth. but then i also nth to do . later will be meeting yunrou. but then i dunno what time also. nv contact. well, feel so tired out after the camp that i only woke up at 11.30 this morning. haha. well, broke my record liao..
okay.. maybe go see see the net for a more while then go play yq. hehez...

-OG9, family 2, the green jub-jub-
-tengwan

-1:52:00 PM



jjc
Tuesday, January 04, 2005

hmm.. its the 2nd day of school at jjc liao. so first day was so bad.. cos i was still down with a cough and sore throat.. now still, then was cheering all the way. but somehow, today managed to get used to things. haiz.. but tmw i m going to camp.. 3 days 2 nights. sianz..

jjc seems to wan discipline a lot.. the spirit too. so everything got to be team work. well, made a few frens in my OG. and many pri sch, schmates are there.. haha.. first day i went there, i danced with my pri sch fren.boy le.. last time pri 3 used to be gd frens. now not liao.. haha.. but he like nv change like that..

oh well, watching tv now.. maybe i shld go watch. making this blog a short one. packing my things later la.. sianz..

byee.!

-jjtengwan

-5:57:00 PM



last day of holiday liao. so fast.
Sunday, January 02, 2005

haiz.. sianz le. tmw sch reopen liao. then tmw by 7am must reach. aiyo... so early somemore. haiz. dunno what will be going on tmw. i m curious. once again going to a new environment. haiz.. i dun like new env. always make me so insecure.. lolz

so sianz.. now i a bit better from sickness. but beri weak. cough cough once then will like wan faint. then cannot walk.. sianz.. tmw how? later i cannot tahan..awW

now i dunno what to do also

keep it short.. tmw see after sch got time or not then i blog....

-tengwan

-3:25:00 PM



happy new 2005
Saturday, January 01, 2005

hmm.. happy new year to everyone. haiz, so saiyang.. yesterday nv blog. too sick to blog lo. yesterday i count down to 2005 in my dreams. cos too sick liao.. then go bed liao lo. got one nite i all the way 39deg++ le.. so hot. highest was 39.5.then cannot sleep. now a bit better. but then if nv eat med rite, fever will rise again.haiz. bad way to end 2004.2005 better be good..

i did not much things lately. cos sick.. then was like only sleep, eat med, then eat meal like no appetite at all. no strength. now beri xin ku. haiz.. 2pid fever.. then cough until wan die liao.haha..aiyo.. like so many pple start to get sick liao le. so sad. maybe because of the weather. yesterday we suppose to go down to east coast seaside to camp over and countdown. but then i was sick. then my pa got to do some of his work. then was like rain the whole day. we all waited whole day sia. wait until evening. then in the end? cancelled. cos keep raining and so many pple not free. my biggest uncle also a bit sick. i sick. pa sick. my cousin family got someone pass away. haiz. then my fourth uncle busy with work. same for my pa. in the end. cancelled. haiz. there goes our camp

so bad. keep raining...

then jjc say that got camp le. must pay $88. i dun wan to go le. i dun like sch camp one. then i hope that time i still din fully recover yet. then can excuse dun go....

alrite, what a gloomy way to start 2005. haiz. hope everything will be fine afterall....

-sickly2005 tengwan

-11:23:00 AM